It's still not right. I'm super depressed. Today was a bad day. A rather.. wrong day where things don't go my way.. Almost fought wif Esmond today. I've gotta thank Sze Xin and Afiq. If they were not there to stop everything, i would have gone in a rage and attacked that childish fag. I'm not really angry, but really hurt by this class of ppl i'm gotta stay wif for 1 and a half year more. It happened cos.. We were playing frizbee during pe today. Den.. During one of the throws where Esmond was trying to catch it, he pushed me, and i almost fell, den i managed to keep my balance on my left foot, den i springed into the air to try to get it away from him, but he got it, and when i landing de tym, i gonna fall liaos, den i accidentally pushed him abit. He never fall wad. Den he turn around so bu shuang. I didn't wanna make any fighting or anything, den i immediately said sorry and i wasn't doing it on purpose.. Den he so hoing. Come scold me, den i say he dun cb lehx. Den we advanced towards each other.. Den wanna fight lyk that, den Sze Xin quickly came to stop it by grabbing Esmond back den i wanted to b de tym, he said sth that made me wanna whack him. He said no wonder the whole class disliked me. I really wanted to go punch him or sth.. But lucky Afiq dun let me go. Otherwise i sure fight wif him liao. I wun't care even if i kenna beaten. I sure go fight him de.
But seriously. This is why i dun really lyk secondary school life. I would prefer a poly life. Cos everyone there is lyk so mature, dun look down on ppl, and can remain as friends without any arguments and stuff. I'm seriously so down today. I feel so tired, So tired. I've no longer got hope in this class no more. I trust no one there but myself. Even if they all dislike me, i've no choice. It's not my thoughts. I can't change anything. I've to lead my life no matter what. And i've to do it by myself. No one to help me, no one to support me. It's not fair. I dun wanna stay in 3e3. They dun lyk me, i dun lyk them. They treat me lyk as if i've done something very bad to them.. I can't find out what i did, and i'm not living to suffer their torture.. I'm down. My eyes are bleeding soon. So pain. Idk why.
This kind of pain.. Is worst than physical pain. I'm so disappointed with my own class that i sometimes i feel i totally dun belong there. And no one can ever understand how i feel. They all only care about themselves. And my existence is only to allow them to make fun of me. It's Just so not right.
