♥N.M.P

Wednesday, May 19, 2010 { 10:10 PM }

Oh yea. I somehow managed to ask for M&MS Outing! =)

Life rocks when these fun stuff happen! and thy owe pearchan a meal too. =) So means outing den i'd pay her share tooooo. Haha. 30/50. What i got for yesterday's OOPG test. fantabulous. Somehow Pear-chan got 5 more marks then me. awwwwww. it's alright. I get to treat her a meal, cos i passed. =)

Somehow, life's going at a great momentum for thy thus far. =) Shawn'll get better. I hope.

I love monster. That song rocks.

Monday, May 17, 2010 { 10:38 AM }

In the modest of everyday,
how much of you have I found?
Before the seasons flow away,
I want to see you again.

No matter how many dreams go in vain.
Even if our destiny disappear someday.
Even if our footprints fade.
I will not forget you.

Sunday, May 16, 2010 { 11:49 PM }

The past.

F.O.R was pathetic. The reason why i'm actually emo-ing is: Even though i spent the 1st half of the day with her, all the way till nightfall, it all came to light when we went to the jetty and it was 10. I was on the brink of giving up. I seriously was. She didn't even bother about me. The heartbreak point was when i bade farewell on the jetty, to go home all alone, she did not even show any care, concern or anything to me. She simply let me leave. I felt like i lost the world at that point. Like some living dead walking out of the battlefield alive. That moment felt so cold. I wandered all around ecp for an hour, looking for an exit, but was actually heading straight all the way. How could i even bother finding an exit when my heart was almost broken ? Eventually, i seeked for help, and managed to get home somehow.

Bringing myself to the present. The most recent event we had. 14th may 2010. The first ever time anyone bothers to celebrate my birthday with me.
1stly, it was my class, dit/ft/1a/02 who pulled out a cake after break time to surprise zhenyee and me. If felt good. No one in my life for 17 years has ever bought me a cake to eat(non-family). I was kinda surprised. I thought i wasn't super liked within my class, but at least they cared.

Next, when MOM told me to stay in class after my last lesson, i knew something was up. But. It was rather unexpected. At first, i though it really was a tiny celebration, with jie and mom bringing me a tiny swiss cake thing. HAHA. I was quite happy to see it. They even lit a candle for me and brought it to me. I was touched already. =D People who i haven't known for a month are actually bringing me a cake. I didn't know what to say. I was obviously happy. After a few snaps for the camera, i conveniently forgot to cut the cake. And started biting it. O.O
As i began nibbling at it, suddenly, they turned off the lights again, and from the door, emerged a great bunch of people. I was dumbfounded. No longer shocked. It was like a troupe of people coming in to show that i actually mean something to them. When i texted pear chan before that, and asked her where she was going after her lessons were over, she told me home. with a smiley. I of course believed her. And eventually, she turned up at the birthday celebration for me. OH MY WORD. I felt so content. Who needs a cake when u've got pears LOL. =D

Saturday, May 8, 2010 { 12:28 AM }

YAY. Today's the day for the DMIT FOR LIAO! =D HAHA. I shall go sleep soon, as i'm meeting pear chan and matin at JE tmr morning at 11! O.o HAHA. Shall ride 58 MRT stops tmr. I'm sure dad wun let me overnight de. Oh well. Night cycling will be fun. =D HAHA. But, i'm damn hungry nao! O.o Anw! Shall update on sunday liao! YAY. GOGOGO! This viper's gonna enjoy to day! Carpe Diam! Or however u spell it!

Thursday, May 6, 2010 { 8:18 AM }

I'm feeling very strange. I've been thinking, what happens when failure consumes me ?
Just so afraid when rumors spread, she'll ignore me. The day that happens, i'd have no idea what to do.

The messages are getting abit slow, but she still remains kinda interactive with me i guess. I can't tank all these thoughts all by myself. Thus i spoke to elaine about it. Made me feel abit better i guess. I mean with someone that i can at least share with. >.<>

What happens? If she's not going for FOR. I really kinda wanna go FOR with her leh. But her last text to me last night was kinda strange. I dun understand what she said like with if there's no reply, i'm dead. O.o I obviously replied : dun die on me. But what should i do ? I'm puzzled, confused, helpless and in panic.

Come on Viper. Dun die so fast.

This site kinda becomes a place where i can express myself, and like salvage myself ?
sigh.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010 { 11:01 PM }

I really wanna answer. the Answer to your question, Yeah, it makes a great difference. Great to me i guess. Sometimes i also dunno what to tell you. And i always end up stuffing everything to myself. Sometimes i feel like i'd just reach the max limit and just end up with nothing to think about. It's just that stressing. I have no idea what to say to you to like make you feel happier ? Just seeing you emo emo de look already i also dunno what to say sia. I'd probably go, Dun emo le la! Come, we go ___________. To try and make you more sociable with us. Yet sometimes i also dunno what to do. It's not easy. And i'm not complaining. I'm just writing out my woes. >.< Come on Viper, you can do it. JYJY!

{ 10:33 PM }

Wow ? I can't believe myself. It's been 3 weeks since poly life started. I miss FOC. I seriously do. Sigh. Ahh. But FOR is coming right up, in fact, it's just this coming saturday, at ECP! I so wanna go and hang out with the peeps. >.<

Sigh. Somehow, the relationship with the people at LJS isn't really that smooth already. Justin doesn't seem like the person i knew at the start of poly life. Syafiq is still alright, least he's the only person like still more active with me leh. I dunno. It's like we're all slipping further from one another. What ever happened to ljs? Half the peeps dun even come back for our social gatherings.
PEAR-CHAN! GO FOR WITH ME LA. DUN PS ME LEH! GO GO, IF U GO I PEI U GO PIANO LOL. Though i'm not musically talented, i'm sure the piano can't kill me! Besides, it rocks to listen to piano pieces. =D

Imagine playing arashi pieces on the piano. Magical. Sigh. Life is hard, but i'm adapting. I dun think today, when i called prescilla to ask if we all could have lunch together, she was speaking the truth. Saying that they have no space, i'm sure she didn't want me there, cos of my strained relationship with my classmates. I seldom wanna eat with my classmates, as idk, they just seem so... Different from me. We're like on the wrong frequency. But slowly, at least they are accepting me. I dun wanna be outcasted already. I was outcasted for my secondary sch life. But no, i'm not accepting this kinda life anymore. I wanna change everything. I dun wanna live my live like this.

Pear-chan, dun emo so much le la! Come on. Lets find someday where we're free and go out! HAHA. =D