Hatred, a sword that slowly becomes blunt. After frequent use, the wear, tear and rust brings you to slowly forgive and forget.
I've come to the point where i'm not being bothered much alr. It's not that i hate him anymore. It's come to the point where there's nothing called hate or despise you to the core alr. It's down to the point where i simply don't like you. :)
This song. The Price of Freedom. Is that good. Listen alr will feel so sad. Zack...
I can't believe OOPG assignment won't be that hard after all. I've got help. Thanks to hao jian. Actually.
This poem. :(
LOVELESS:
Prologue When the war of the beasts brings about the world's end The goddess descends from the sky Wings of light and dark spread afar She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting
Act I Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess We seek it thus, and take it to the sky Ripples form on the water's surface The wandering soul knows no rest
Act II There is no hate, only joy For you are beloved by the goddess Hero of the dawn, Healer of worlds Dreams of the morrow hath the shattered soul Pride is lost Wings stripped away, the end is nigh
Act III My friend, do you fly away now? To a world that abhors you and I? All that awaits you is a somber morrow No matter where the winds may blow My friend, your desire Is the bringer of life, the gift of the goddess Even if the morrow is barren of promises Nothing shall forestall my return
Act IV My friend, the fates are cruel There are no dreams, no honour remains The arrow has left the bow of the goddess My soul, corrupted by vengeance Hath endured torment, to find the end of the journey In my own salvation And your eternal slumber Legend shall speak Of sacrifice at world's end The wind sails over the water's surface Quietly, but surely
Act V Even if the morrow is barren of promises Nothing shall forestall my return To become the dew that quenches the land To spare the sands, the seas, the skies I offer thee this silent sacrifice
Dear Viper, LOVELESS.
Friday, July 30, 2010{ 10:55 AM }
And today leads back to that point, the crossroads where i watch the people around me whom i used to call friends, leave me. Well, i didn't make such a choice. On my side of the story, i said nothing related to him. I simply just minded my own business. what the fuck ? I mean it's not like as if i was talking about ur mom or sth ? Hello? I was writing some inspirational quote to myself. And now you call me childish to get angry over sth like this? Fine, i don't need a dog as my friend. Now, next, u msn me say i kiddy, ask me grow up. I'm lazy to kp with you, and you say i can remove you from fb and msn, and i did so, then you come say i pussy bo ji debate with you ? What the fuck ? You just asked me to remove you, i did so. And you come kp me? What the fuck? Dogs like you deserve worst than death. I took you as a friend. When you were upset last time, you call me brother say till so nice. Now kp liao la. Zai. (Y) Dogs are dogs, awhile liao must reveal true colour. Zai lor. I bwg, to such dogs like you. Chao ji bai. You got ji come la. Fucking dog.
Tsk. I can't stand people who come say we're friends den next moment, sth he does changes everything. Within a month, i've such stories twice alr. Fine, go ahead, i wasn't even close to people like you anw, my SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE AND MY POLY LIFE ARE DIFFERENT. THERE'S NO ONE I SEE IN SEC SCH WHOM I TRUSTED AND BELIEVED IN. AND WHEN I DID, WHAT HAPPENS ? THANKS. ALOT.
Dear viper, chill? it's not worth the effort.
Thursday, July 29, 2010{ 10:27 PM }
Somewhat skipped classes today.
2 hours nia. Then got nothing else alr. There wasn't anything else after COS. so decided to be lazy. and not go.
Today was a hectic day. I stayed at home and did nothing. :)
Motto of the day: 1582.
Oh my fucking god. Next week IWGD/WEBP AND OOPG assignment due. And the ONOW assignment's presentation got pushed back to next week also. Jialat liao. I scared i fail math sia. :(
Dear Viper, don't panic. Stay strong.
{ 12:38 AM }
Quoting whatever i've learnt in life so far, The best kind of dreams, are the unobtainable ones.
Today will be the date for Onow presentation, gonna do the bit of work from the ONOW WORD DOCUMENT. Sigh. Oh dear. Stress alr. I kid around too much alr i think.
I have new glasses. My old pair of glasses are now in the murky depths of Siloso Beach. :( Oh well. I can collect them today. After school i think. Den my blind days will be over! :) Sigh. I dunno why, i feel damn listless nowadays. Not much goals in life. But sian sia. Anw, 6.68 is out alr. Wow. 4 new heroes. And every pubber there is out there picks the heroes damn fast la. All pia the hero to play. -.- Damn lame la. I still sticking with the old heroes. :)
Imma go sleep damn soon. Tired. Tmr de class early. 8 am sia. I scared oversleep again. Dun wanna miss COS alr. My results scary. Need to buck up. Alot. :(
Hahaha. Anw, i think i got ONOW tmr. Gonna go do the thing den tmr lunch can enjoy alr.
Dear Viper, Life isn't all about sorrow. Life isn't all about sadness. It's the way you live it, thus how it will turn out.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010{ 10:37 PM }
I swear to god, that i need an external harddisk.
I seriously need one. :( And i ain't got the cash to buy one yet.
Sigh. Today, i lazed at home, w/o going to school. (Y) fantastic. Losing motivation. Everything's feeling damn sian today. Sigh. Zack. oh zack, your death is so sad. LOVELESS. That play, is so sad. Everything feels so sad.
I wonder if that play can be written one. I don't mind going to watch such a play. :)
Ahhhh. The gift of the goddess. Something that i want too. :(
Dear viper, the day is but what of a sorrow's end.
Monday, July 26, 2010{ 11:59 AM }
Today's just a chilly monday. Been a few days since i blogged. Anw, most major event last week was yesterday, where i went to Sentosa's Siloso Beach with Fifi, Joyce, Irvin and Weikiat! ItFiesta bunch! Haha. Eventually we 5 ended up playing frisbee, sand burial, Taiti and My newly bought Monopoly cards which i'd end up donating to the DMIT club's games. :)
Anw, i lost my glasses, floating away somewhere into the water of siloso beach. Now it lays somewhere under the depths of siloso beach de sea. =X Anw, i've to go get a new pair of glasses i guess. Life sucks.
Current mood: LOVELESS.
haha, Shall carry on tonight i guess. (Y)
Dear Viper, I know you're tired, but hang in there. A month's over.
Friday, July 23, 2010{ 10:24 PM }
What a week. Nthing much went on today. Most impt event was the talentine's auditions. haha.
I need to sleep man, been lying to myself everynight that i must go home early from school, and must sleep early. It NEVER happens. :( Sigh.
Today marks the 21st day of closure. 3 weeks have passed. How am i feeling ? Alot better than the start. You know, we could have still been friends, till she made that choice that spoilt it all. I mean, at the last event that i organised for her, i just had this funny feeling that everything was about to end. True enough. Sigh.
Dear Viper, cheer up. Ain't that sad. You'll get over her. And you won't be going for probably anyone else i guess. Your Oath. You're binded to it, and will seek to keep it in action for as long as possible. Remember. :)
Dear Awesome traded my shirt with one she bought from moberly. haha. I gave her an M, and i got back an S size. :( haha.
Fringe is getting more and more irritating. And dear mr hairband died alr. I need a new one. :( Bah. Sunday's coming, can't wait to have sakae.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010{ 10:25 PM }
Never again. :) Today's motto.
I skipped OOPG class today. 3 hours, i went for sleep class. It was alot better. I only went for the other lesson which was IWGD. Boring ttm. Den went clubrm slack. Hahah. Beats anything else. What's there to expect in life nowadays? I have no idea. Haha. Anw, wanna try a big shoutout to Casper! Yixuan, for giving me Advent children. I'd go watch it later. :) YAY! HAHA. Short post today. Original post thrown away. Shall do a longer one tomorrow. :( Hhaa.
Dear Viper, Next thing to look forward to will be Dinner on sunday.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010{ 4:46 PM }
What a sian day. Currently in last class for the day, before i can make my way down to the club room to do nothing, and maybe see who's there to have dinner with me. :)
SELF VS SELF. Today's theme. :) Wow, i'm proud of myself, to have handed up the math assignment, which was due before the 2 weeks of holidays. (Y) today. And that IWGD hwk that was due on last Friday.
Sibei sian alr. I've tried my best to not play games today in class. So sian, but i haven't played anything much yet. Just touched my psp for Crisis core abit only. :( Haha. Sad from the story still.
I wonder who's there to makan with me tonight at fc3. Or fc5. I dun mind either. :) Seems like tonight, won't be playing dota with the peeps alr. Melia said probably can't. Yesterday's games were screwed due to cui internet. hahaha.
Sigh. I've got 40 more mins to tahan before end of classes for the day. :( Jy, dear viper.
Monday, July 19, 2010{ 9:49 PM }
Ahh, What a tiring day. Class began early, 8.30am, played crisis core in class today. (Y) And did some math. Den next was oopg, totally boring lesson. -.- Blah blah, next came epic sian-ness of the week. It was just monday, and tada, now, we have a same class where i'd see her. zzz. sucks ttm.
Anw, i realised how sad, crisis core is gonna end. :( Oh Aerith! Oh Zack! How could they not be together? And yet be together only in death ? :(
Ahhh. Tragedy. :( Feeling sad ttm alr.
{ 9:19 AM }
Didn't blog yesterday. Haha, Now i'm in math class, boring. Trying to rush my report for IWGD which was due on friday lol. (Y).
Currently dulan with my progress in crisis core, stuck at the part at the infilitration. God, i feel sad, the ending of crisis core, gonna be damn sad sia. :( Zack died. :( Aerith also later on. :(
Wa lan uh, make the storyline so sad. :( Emo alr.
Saturday, July 17, 2010{ 10:44 PM }
phew, i'm tired. Gonna do this blog post short i guess, kenneth's waiting for me to play Card Shuffle. :( Haha, better dun disappoint him since he waited for me to play. Haha. Tomorrow, gonna spend the evening liddat out with Jiaqi, i'm gonna treat her sakae i think. Long time since i ate that also. Probably 70 bucks at least? Haha. It's alright, since i can afford it for now.
Anw, spent the day at Ivan Chua's hse, playing Monopoly deaaaaaaaal, some fun-to-play card game. It's better with more people, but it was quite thrilling ba. :) And we played taiti also, along with PES on his bro's PS3. I'm currently hooked onto Crisis Core, which i think is better than Dissidia. The FFTA that downloaded isn't what i expected, as for the 2003 edition, kinda abit of difference. Sigh. And after all that, my only thought of the day was, when can i get a girl whom i truely like, who has the same feelings for me, and will be there for me when i need someone ? The story continues, u loved her. And now.. . Viper, stay strong. :(
Friday, July 16, 2010{ 12:41 PM }
What a bad day today is. I wake up, feel like crap, i go back to sleep, i still feel like crap. :( Just got up, had like 2 bouts of dota, and still feel like crap. Man, i promised Kenny to go with him to the talentime auditions, haha. But i didn't even make it to school today. Tomorrow, there's CIP. :( On sunday i'm going out with Jiaqi. Go causeway walk walk do nothing, eat. :) haha.
I'm hungry. Shall order macs later i guess. Now i'm waiting for someone to jio me dota. Earthshaker was fun. :) haha. Though i missed WEBP class again, i'm more concerned now on IWGD and OOPG. Impt projects coming up. :(
Enough of school. I feel like calling macs today. Feel like eating erm... Mega mac! :) 67773777! Hehe. Shall do so now. Macwings? I'm hungry for them too.
Ahhhh. I'm tired. But yeah, got a weekend to look forward to.
Live free, dear viper.
Thursday, July 15, 2010{ 9:32 PM }
What a hectic today. After class, i realized today no need do ONOW presentation, but tmr need pia out the IWGD de work. >.<
I doubt i wanna dota tonight, ray, melia all not playing. Sigh. Only got kenneth leh. But nvm la. Dun play jiu dun play, at least i've got other things more impt to do. :)
Weeeee. I must learn how to sing Going! man. Ueda is simply too cute! Hahahaha. Hmmm, Bought 3 new shirts today, from newbie. Haha, cost me 57 bucks man, but i'm happy with my buy. And i bought 2 books today, compliments of my nets card. I bought a WOW book, and a garfield comic book. (Y) My fav kinda comic. Hahaha. I ate chicken rice for lunch today, at fc6. Dinner Phelia said her intro de chicken rice zai, so dinner also chicken rice. Hmmm, nthing special leh. >.<>
Shawn is decently happy, even though he spend a damn lot today. :X hehehe. why the weather so fucking hot one sia. =.= Zzzz. Anw, just settled the 3gb.#^%*&!@&!*( thing. Tmr can just give url and settle alr. Baptist class at 8. Wonder if i can get up in time for it. And need tell mr doggy that the OOPG thing need kin settle, if nt he xia lan me, imma give him colour man. :)
Dear viper, hang in there! Weekends coming alr! =X
Wednesday, July 14, 2010{ 10:29 PM }
Hmmm. It's NMP. The perfect song to neutralize my feelings atm. :) Thank you Kattun.
{ 10:20 PM }
Time passed so fast. We're no longer friends. It's too sad a story to talk about. Imma skip it all.
It's a restart. But there's scars. There's wounds, but they'll heal. We're no longer friends, and he ain't fit to be friends with me no more. The world might be a better place for me now, as i pick myself up from this. Goodbye to the old me, i guess. However, these feelings come back to me somehow sometimes at night, where during the cold night, i am unable to do anything else, but think of her.
The damage has been done, but shawn'll get through this. I hope. :) On a lighter note, i watched despicable me at Jurong Point yesterday. Super cute. Damn worth watching. I love the 2nd sister, the cute one. <3 hehehe, The minions also damn funny la. The entire show is sibei nice. :)
Today, i stayed back in school, to have lunch with Ah gong, aka Javeus. But ended up going to watch the DMIT Talentime de Auditions. Haha, Nt that bad uh. Quite nice also. It's been a long time since i blogged anyway. I'm back. Happier than ever, i hope.
gether only in death ? :(
Ahhh. Tragedy. :( Feeling sad ttm alr.
hehehe, The minions also damn funny la. The entire show is sibei nice. :)