There's only one word to describe me.
Name: Shawn/Randy/Tatsuya
School:Singapore Polytechnic
Age: 17
Birthday: 14th May 1993

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Kenneth.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010 { 11:08 PM }

I simply don't get it why people like having it their way. I mean, come on, i organised it, and when the time came, they made their choices, and yeah. I mean i don't get a right? I made everything happen. And when it's RM. I said we should play sth else, and tada. They all don't want to. What the fuck?

Simply dislike fucktards ttm.

And yes, i'm talking about jonnie and rayfag.

Dear Viper, they are hopeless.

Sunday, August 22, 2010 { 3:01 AM }

It was with such style and flair did Chelsea crush Wigan. 6-0. that 3 mins of magic, brilliance won me 85 bucks. Chelsea are gonna be the team to beat. :D Imba. Seriously. Tmr gonna buy on United and Villa.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010 { 4:31 AM }

It all seemed so long ago, on second hand, not so long ago. A couple of months? We're not friends, just distant people who need to talk to one another from the need of CCA involvement? NYAA. That last small and tiny bridge that links me to her.

How has life progressed for me? I know you will love me, the way. . . (Y) I like the song Colourful. Very nice. hahah.

It's 4.34am. Everyone's already nicely tucked into bed, and here i am blogging. What happened to do math? I SWEAR I AM GONNA DO TMR. NO ACTIVITIES. I WILL DO MATH. CBCBCBCBCB. HAHAHA.

I live in the past. The past is my present, there's not much of a future. Memories. That's what lives in the photographic memory of me. Elusive, that's the way i think. I am the factor that changes my future, shapes my destiny. I live for the sake of 1 reason, to live my life. Without a doubt, it's always there. The thoughts that corrupt me. Destroying my way of thinking. What else is left?

I have abandoned hope. What lies in wait? For my near future? I am the one to find out.
I have abandoned love. there's no one to love, no one to care for. I don't really even care for myself.
I have abandoned trust. There's no one i trust. Not even myself.
I have abandoned believe. No plans, no belief, no Justice.
I have abandoned Myself. The world not in need of me.
But, no one has abandoned me.

Dear Viper, Back and forth you wander, one day, you'll find the desired road you've always wanted to walk.

Saturday, August 14, 2010 { 3:56 PM }

It's been so fast. An entire week's passing by already. I need to refocus, i promise this coming week, imma sit down with that blue book thing, and study my math. I can't hear again. Everyday i'd drip the earthing, to try to be able to hear. Sucks, when you only can hear with one ear. sigh. Get well soon i guess. Yesterday, i met up with jessica and talked about life. Or should i say r/s? Of course it's not me and her, but her and her boyfriend. Wow. Sucks when a r/s doesn't work how you want it to.

National day came and went. It's like as if it didn't really matter to me. It's the 7th month already. So fast. Jess and i went to take a stroll at Yishun Park while talking. Never noticed it could get so dark in there at night. It wasn't scary at all though, the mood of the convo wasn't near scary either. I wonder will things change for her. haha. Hope it does. :)

Dear Viper, there's no love left. :) So show no fear. :)

Saturday, August 7, 2010 { 11:22 AM }

In approximately 1 hours and 38 mins, i'm gonna go meet my bros, and go swimming. Actually is called 'play water.' Pray, that the swimming complex is open. Cause if we make the trip all the way there and it's closed for YOG jiu sian alr. I think if liddat we sure gonna find something else that we can do one sia. hahaha. Please let the swimming complex be open. =( It'll be the last time i can swim for an entire month. 7th month is coming already. Hahaha. I'm guessing they wanna meet up and grab a bite together? O.o

Ahhhhhhhh. If everything works out fine today, it'll be such a day. Holidays are beginning. I must start allocating time to study. If nt later end of the term i can go eat shit and die sia. :(

I go do nothing for awhile liao ba.

Dear Viper, enjoy yourself for now ba. :)

{ 2:46 AM }

I know i can be colourful.



Someday, i'll find her. Someday, i'll find myself back. Someday, this world will be different.
You know? How hard it is to have made mistakes in life. Come to think of it, i am a very hard to get along person? You know, i learnt how sad it is in life, when there's no one left to care for you. No one you can share anything with. When your closest friends all aren't so close after all. However, even in the form of my classmates, i've not lost hope. There's people, like JianPing, Lewis, Ah tiong, Gary, Ah Ben and some of the rest who i can at least fall back on. In DMIT club, i can seek refuge from the outside world, with the seniors, people like Mom, Jie, Dad, Fiq, Ah Gong. All these people will probably be there for me when i need them the most. I seriously treasure what i have in my life so far. it's just that i'm not the sort who'll hold such a deep and powerful grudge against someone.

I'm an impulsive person. I like to do things w/o thinking. Forget things so quickly. JUSTICE. Something that doesn't exist. There's no more pain, there's just accumulated thoughts, that won't go away. How so shall thy live my life in such a painful world? I should thank you one day, for not returning me the love i showed you. I'd keep on running, i won't die. Not so easily. :)
It was good to have done so i guess.
As i recall the past, i'd always blame myself for the stupid choices i've made, the stupid thoughts i've had, and that sad past. Who can i blame it on? I have no one to point fingers at anyway. It was all me.
What can't kill us, makes us stronger.

I am tired. Both physically and mentally. I'm exhausted. You must feel nothing, being happy with him and all sorts. I'm just, all alone, in this factor. Destined? . . .

Dear Viper, even where the next teardrop rolls down your face, keep to your heart, and you will know who's who, in this PAINFUL WORLD.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010 { 12:10 AM }

Well, i cfm my oopg can go die alr. Sigh. Alast, lets leave the same stories for one more day.

Today, after school, Out clique went out together, went for an impromptu K-box outing. haha, set today, and we had it today, after COS class. Shall i skip tomorrow's COS ? :( I freaking damn lost track of life alr sia. Math i cfm must pia during the 3 weeks break. Gonna contribute a weekend to brushing it up at least. I must stop kidding around so much leh. Start to feel the pressure coming alr. Everything also cui. OOPG dead alr probably. Den COS i already behind time. Need salvage everything sia now. :(

What a topsy-tuvry world. I'm like lost here, and tired, and sian of everything. :( No idea, but everything seems super aimless for me now leh. I can't wait for end-of-the-year for another damn fun outing with Ray, melia, kenneth and maybe chiam ? haha. It'll be great to have them all around to have an over night dota session. Hahah. That'll allow my life to be hell lot more fun. But fun can't be all that you want in life right ? Confused, unwanted. What else ? Sigh.

Dear Viper, Hard luck, hard life. R/s ? Hell yeah. In a pathetic state now. :(