Someday, i'll find her. Someday, i'll find myself back. Someday, this world will be different. You know? How hard it is to have made mistakes in life. Come to think of it, i am a very hard to get along person? You know, i learnt how sad it is in life, when there's no one left to care for you. No one you can share anything with. When your closest friends all aren't so close after all. However, even in the form of my classmates, i've not lost hope. There's people, like JianPing, Lewis, Ah tiong, Gary, Ah Ben and some of the rest who i can at least fall back on. In DMIT club, i can seek refuge from the outside world, with the seniors, people like Mom, Jie, Dad, Fiq, Ah Gong. All these people will probably be there for me when i need them the most. I seriously treasure what i have in my life so far. it's just that i'm not the sort who'll hold such a deep and powerful grudge against someone.
I'm an impulsive person. I like to do things w/o thinking. Forget things so quickly. JUSTICE. Something that doesn't exist. There's no more pain, there's just accumulated thoughts, that won't go away. How so shall thy live my life in such a painful world? I should thank you one day, for not returning me the love i showed you. I'd keep on running, i won't die. Not so easily. :) It was good to have done so i guess. As i recall the past, i'd always blame myself for the stupid choices i've made, the stupid thoughts i've had, and that sad past. Who can i blame it on? I have no one to point fingers at anyway. It was all me. What can't kill us, makes us stronger.
I am tired. Both physically and mentally. I'm exhausted. You must feel nothing, being happy with him and all sorts. I'm just, all alone, in this factor. Destined? . . .
Dear Viper, even where the next teardrop rolls down your face, keep to your heart, and you will know who's who, in this PAINFUL WORLD.
