Why? I can't find the solution. Forever, it's like as if I'm running on a treadmill. I wanna try to stop. And yet, all i can think of, is you. It's not like i haven't tried giving up. Why can't i ? I seem to keep sinking back down to the same square one. It's not working. I can't even find a solution to my issues.
The only person who can solve this, is yourself. Sigh. Every night, i can dream of a similar happy tomorrow. It's that sad. I can literally taste my dreams. And yet when reality hits back at me, it hits hard. Im that far away from my happiness. I wanna tear. Of all the happy thoughts i have with her, all i want is a simple relationship, where we'd spend time with each other. And love each other. But alas. That doesn't seem how things will prevail in the end. :(
I really want her. I really do.
Sigh. Maybe i'd just broken dreams. Which i'd have to leave behind sooner or later ? Depressed. I know i can love her. I know i can take good care of her. I know i love her. I know it all. But when things come out, it's not how much i know. It's the feeling? Sigh. I know i can be a tad hot-headed sometimes, but. . . Sigh. And i lose my temper easily when i'm pissed off. But to her, i'd never do so. :(
Ahh. Memories? I've had so much with you over the past 9 months that we've known each other. Tomorrow? It's just gonna be a day that i feel more sadness. I can't convince myself. Sometimes i really just can't. That she doesn't like me. I'd just rebuke myself by saying other things, which will change how i think. I know i love her. But.. .
If one day, we ever get together, i promise myself that i'll love her, with everything i've got. Cause i just do.
Dear Viper, will happiness ever come your way? You've an Oath to keep to. Please hold on tight to it. :|
