My heart hurts. Alot. It hurts. So bad. How can it ever heal ? Even if it does. The damage has been done. Someone stabbed me with a knife. Took it out. And put it in again. I'm a good for nothing. Useless. People despise me. Even my dad does. How can that make me even useful. The girl who i chased for 9 months. Doesn't give a damn. I don't even know how to live my life.
I don't know. I'm so lost. Confused. Pathetic.
Liar. You said it was the last try 10 times ago. You didn't hear me? And u still went on to try.
I've lost my colour. Lost myself. Lost everything i fucking give a damn about. It's like i'm emotionless now. It hurts. No one understands me. No one ever will. I'm just too. Useless.
I just can't do anything right can i ?
Maybe i should just ditch everything. Be a half-bucket. and live my live and waste it away. I don't care. It hurts too much to care. I just feel like finishing everything. Just like that.
Nothing really matters. Does it?
I'd rather die a hero, than a zero. At least heroes die with honour, fall with grace. Zeroes just die a pathetic and hopeless death. It hurts. Hurts so much. Too much for me.
You don't care. Maybe i should not too. What for? I'm paying the price. The damage stacks. I can't take too much of it. You would't care either. I should just go die. Ends everything.
