Well. Today was a peaceful day. I'm learning fast. Letting go of emotion. Who needs all that, when you can live freely and happily. I won't deny i think having a relationship is good. But. I'm not even sure already. With my current mindset in a mess. Who am i to control my own destiny? And yet the other side of me, tells me destiny is in my own hands.
When will i wake up? From this nightmare, from this dream. From everything i know. It's never possible.
Shall i keep solemnly to my oath? Or break it like i don't give a damn. She doesn't anyway. Argh. I don't need anyone. I don't even know if i need myself. Troubles? I'm ignoring them. Running from them all. As i used to. Well. For now, lets live this way. Till i get sick of this lifestyle. Till i sense that change is needed in my life.